last everything.
Ok, let’s do this. I’ll never be ready, so let’s just do this.
Last night was such an awesome night. I missed nights like those. My family and Laura’s first host family. We had dinner in Kuruçeşme right on the water. We laughed a lot and took funny pictures. We talked about memories from the year. Pelin read our futures in our Turkish coffee cups. We hugged and held on to each other, and we cried a little in the end.
I have a little less than two weeks left, but since I’m going to Bodrum, everything from here on out is my last everything. Today is my last Friday in Istanbul, tomorrow will be my last trip to the grand bazaar, etc. And I’m just diving in. Trying not to think too much about home or the amount of time I have left. Just being flexible and happy as often as possible. Slowly approaching that inevitable day… but not slowly enough.
Blah, blah, blah.
It’s the same tune all exchange students seem to hum.
And yet, each of us appropriately hum it. The fact that we all go through it, doesn’t really make it any easier. Though it is nice to have people who understand.
Today, I will say “görürüşürüz” to my Amanda. :’( Sad day.
Obviously, the “leaving” is the sad part. Arriving in Texas surrounded by people I love and have missed during this year abroad is more exciting than I can express. The idea of starting the next chapter of my life is exciting as well. I like change. If only I didn’t have to be so far away from life here in Istanbul. From my Turkish family and friends. That would make everything easier. But I realize life isn’t like that. Life isn’t easy. And we grow and get better every time we struggle. So even though I’ll never be ready, let’s just do this.
